Wednesday, March 23, 2011

{vision}

So far this week has been one of those "down" weeks where I wonder what am I doing here, where is God leading me and whats the next step. Yesterday was one of those days when I felt like I hit a brick wall and seriously didn't know what God had next for me. My cop out had failed. I always thought that if I didn't get married I would head for the mission field. I would probably find a shanty town somewhere, hidden from the world, hidden from crushed dreams.

As Corrie Ten Boom said, "Sadly, there are some of God's children who go to the mission field to escape the pain of not having a husband. Work-even mission work- can become a wrong hiding place."

That is not to say that a single person can never head out for the mission field, but that God doesn't want us to hide behind our pain and He doesn't want us to make choices that will only make us feel better and not accomplish His bigger picture.

Why does hiding not work? Because where there is no vision the people perish. Hiding is not a big enough vision. God wants you to live for something bigger than that. He's taken away what is precious so that we can embrace something bigger than that. And until we align our will with His will, we'll just die inside. Our inner core will perish.

So that being said I thought that I would detail my vision... not because you need to know it but because I need to preach to myself.

  1. That each new day my heart would return to the Lord. That each new day would be seen as an opportunity to draw my heart closer to my Lord and Savior and I would not succumb to the mundane.
  2. That the lives I would touch would be better because I was there. That when I drift out of their life, I would have shown them Jesus and they would have seen Him in my life.
  3. That I would fear no evil. And that the less I know of the road ahead the more I would know the One that is leading.
  4. That I would sacrafice the temporal pain for the eternal weights of glory. Leaving behind my selfish desires and clinging only to God's will no matter what pain that might entail.
  5. That I would aspire to be a servant filled with humility and wouldn't seek a high calling, but rather the calling that God has given me.
  6. That I would wait patiently at the crossroads until God guides me forward and not seek to move beyond His perfect will.

1 comment:

Johanna Marie said...

Thank you so much for sharing your vision, Leah! I especially liked the quote from Corrie ten Boom ~ it really made me think about my motives for wanting to go into missions. I'll be praying for you!